I didn't think I could still use this account, but it appears I can! Since I last wrote I went on a mission to South Texas, came back, got a teaching degree, got a job, got married and had a beautiful baby boy. Let's see if I can actually keep up with my journal this time.
I'm home. I'm tired. And for some reason I've been really cranky with my mom. Something about when she tells me to do something and my 21-year-old brain screams, "Hello! College graduate decides her own chores and her own schedule!" Good thing I'm leaving on a mission, or I'd be itching to get out of the house!
Well, I'll be on my way home in a matter of hours. Not really excited about it, but, hey, I had to go home sometime. Besides, I can't keep avoiding my responsibilites forever. Can I? Well, I'm sure I could if I put my mind to it, but I'm so much happier when I don't feel guilt, and I'd really like to keep my conscience active by not ignoring it. So, I guess in a round about way I do really want to go home. Staying here would really just be feeding my ego, since I always feel loved and wanted here. I don't always feel that at home. But you know what? I am. I just don't notice. I mean, I'd be pretty stuck up if I thought that people were always supposed to tell me how much they love and appreciate me. I don't tell other people all the time. However, maybe if I started to do that... Yeah, so this is me getting over myself. Sigh.
Well, my driving record is no longer spotless, but I do get to leave on my mission without further delay, and I'm not a criminal. In short, I plea bargained for a lesser charge. I still don't think I was careless when I passed that truck, but I don't really have the time or the resources to fight against a police officer. Anywho, I'm much happy now that I have a specific date that I WILL be in the MTC. I'm visiting my sister in WAshington again. For some reason I find it less stressful. Probably because I get to face an entirely different set of challenges. So, I'm keeping up on my homework and I got to teach Jaleasa a little bit about how to play the piano. Not much else going on. I've been listening my new CD of the Planets by Holst to drown out the third Veggie Tales movie. I never get tired of Mars.
What a day, what a week (and it's only Wednesday), what a year! The Lord has seen fit to throw a lot of challenges my family's way. So far, I think we've handled them pretty well. The most important part is that we've handled them together. =) So, tomorrow's the big T-day! I'm thankful for the gospel of Jesus Christ; for my amazing family and their undying, unwavering, unconditional support; for my call to serve a mission; for my really nice lawyer that's going to help me actually LEAVE for my mission; for my brother returning home safely; for hospital employees; for the freedom to post my thanks on the internet; for my friends that have helped me so much in my life and have stuck with me through my stupidest times. There's a lot more, but I want people to actually read it. =) Especially those I am thankful for (or at least the ones that have livejournal accounts). OH! I'm also thankful that Tavis taught me how to throw and catch a football. (and for the ice that is reducing the swelling on my arm ;)
Had an awesome night last night that made up for a really crummy day. Yesterday I was supposed to enter the MTC, but since I had to postpone, I won't be entering until at least January 2. If, however, things are not cleared up by then, I will have to postpone again. Anywho, get to meet with the lawyer today. Huzzah.
So, tonight I got to go to the ER for the second time in a week. This time it was for Grandma. She fell and most likely broke her hip. I left Mom and Dad at the ER after two hours of waiting. I still don't know if Grandma even got her x-ray. On the upside, Kendra is healing well and had a fun birthday. I also got a good start on the kitchen cleaning. The family room looks much better and the living room has been somewhat maintained. The part I worry most about is the actual CLEANING, not just picking stuff up and putting it away. My fam's house is dirty because it's cluttered. If they didn't pile stuff up then they might actually think of doing things like dusting and vacuuming and scrubbing, etc. I asked Cubby to do the vacuuming. I can scrub counters and do dishes, but I REALLY hate scrubbing floors. t minus 5 days and counting until I'm off to Provo!
Ok, I'm calm. No panicking. Yesterday Mom and I almost finished a whole dress. So, if can manage to finish two dresses today I will breathe a little easier. I keep telling myself that I have all this stuff to do, and I'm getting to that stage where I start to tell myself what things are unnecessary--you know, the beginnings of slackhood. I don't like that. My brain has decided that the only really important thing is packing, and I don't have to do that until ...Saturday? Fortunately, then my brain reminds itself that in order to pack I need to do some serious shopping, and while I'm out (and using MOmmy's money), I might as well get some goodies for the party, which means I have to clean up, so I am redeemed from slackhood (sort of...is anyone ever really redeemed from it? Some consider it a state of Nirvana). Anywho, I'm off to look productive before Mom gets back.
Just chillin' at WOU with Loradona. It's nice to take a break from stressing out over my mission. Going to OSU tomorrow for Corwin's last competition, and then it's back to mission stressing. I got luggage on Thursday. =) It's nice, and I got it for half off. Anyway, I'm gonna go chill some more. Feeling the flow. Working it, working it.
Well, I'm in Washington visiting my sister for a week. I'll be back at home next Monday. I really like hanging out with Orissa. =) I know it sounds like I'm pleasantly surprised, it's just that I would never have guessed that I would be comfortable chilling with her for this long when we were...younger. The kids are fun and cute and bright as can be. Jaron has quite a personality for a kid who's not even a year old yet. I'm way tired cuz I haven't been sleeping well. But I don't regret coming here one bit. WEll, I'd better do something productive during naptime.